Before we begin…
Today, I experimented with audio. I’m recording this post to let you experience the energy of Joy’s sparkly love for me. It’s an experiment - not polished and fancy because this whole blog is a creative experiment. Just recorded on my iPhone. I hope you enjoy it!
Tenji, baby,
For you, joy = peace.
Isn’t it interesting that your definition of joy as this bright, sparkly explosive thing that feels like the emotion of happiness, has kept us apart and kept you from realising that we already live together? I was going to say that it’s kept you from knowing me but it hasn’t - your body has known me, your mind has not.
I am the thread of curiosity that you follow with your mind into new knowledge and that your body uses to lead you into new skills, experiences and places.
I am the quiet stillness that settles over and around you 70-80% of the time. In these moments you feel neither happy nor sad. You are quiet and still. Living. Open. Accepting. Present. Willing. Steady. And it feels so good.
I am contentment - the feeling of knowing that you’re living in the only way that you are able to, and that that is your only job here on earth.
I am alignment - the sense that you are in integrity. When you are who you say you are. When you do what you mean. When you live from the palm of your hand - pouring your essence out into the world.
I am also discovery, play, pleasure, creativity. I am emotional intensity that reshapes your psyche. I am the frightening but satisfying experience of growing into more. You find deep joy in that. I see your brain light up - synapses firing like a child’s, burning pathways to new forms and realities, mutating your essence and everyone who orbits you.
Tenji, baby, I am also the laughter - the bright sparkly feeling that lights you up like an effervescent lollipop sparkling in your mouth. I am the irreverence, the light-hearted banter, the funny social media reels, your nephew’s delicious antics. In that, I am also what you’ve expected.
So, you have been both right and wrong about me. But in being willing to journey deeper, you’ve now found all me 🙂
What a fun game we get to play for the rest of our lives! What a cozy blanket I get to wrap you in. How cool that you can stop feeling so wrong for feeling like you don’t trust me, like you don’t know how to feel me, like you’re terrified of losing me. Isn’t it awesome that you get to lean into my chest and let me wrap around you like a blanket as you go about the daily work of living.
I really like you and I’m glad that you can finally see me so you can realise how much you like me, too, and we can start having fun together intentionally.
Stay light, my darling. Don’t be tempted to hold me tightly. I’m not going anywhere.
All my love on this most sparkling of days,
JOY!
31 AUGUST 2024
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